truly, completely, utterly, absolutely, irredeemably obsessed. I had a dream about Edward last night, a true first for me. I don't normally dream about fictional characters (or movie stars, or other folks not actually familiar to me). Usually my dreams are populated by vague cardboard-ish figures that I know somehow to be my husband or my brother or my ex-boyfriend or whatever. Not real people--or real-to-me people. Just cutouts that stand for people.

Anyway, I dreamed last night, and Edward was there. *sigh* Perhaps the obsessive reading of the peremptorily released chapters of the ill-fated (say it ain't so, Stephenie!) Midnight Sun, paired simultaneously with an equally obsessive reread of Twilight, altered my subconscious somehow. Or my schoolgirlish excitement about the upcoming release (3 days, people!) of the Twilight movie has pickled my brain. Whatever the cause, Edward has officially taken up residence in my psyche.

Let me clarify something--I have not always been a fan of Edward's. In fact, midway through New Moon, I wanted to commit literary murder. I thought him to be pompous, full of himself, and overbearing. Stubborn and unwilling to admit my frailties I, like Bella, hate to be coddled and protected--and, like Bella, I'm inveterately clumsy and easy to hurt, so I probably need a little buffering from the world's damaging influences. But don't dare TELL ME WHAT TO DO! and heaven forbid that anyone presume to know what's best for me. Anyway, I identify with Bella when Edward leaves her in Eclipse. However, unlike Bella, I do not sink into despondency--I want to hunt him down and chop him into small bits.

All that simply explains my absolute amazement at Edward's nocturnal cameo. I guess I forgave him somewhere along the line--perhaps his willingness to fight the Voluturi? Or maybe his amused (bemused?) indulgence of Bella's horrific baby-naming skills? Whatever...Edward is now my guy. He has taken up residence alongside Mr. Darcy, Harry Potter, and Aragorn in my heart of hearts. The man keeps good company...